“Elliot,” I repeated.
The baby stirred, as if hearing himself.
My throat tightened.
Years ago, before everything went wrong, Connor and I had kept a list of baby names in the notes app on my phone. He had treated it like a joke at first, adding names of athletes and movie characters just to make me roll my eyes.
But I had added one name after a twelve-hour shift in pediatrics, after treating a little boy who gave me a sticker because he said doctors needed bravery too.
Elliot.
I had forgotten that.
No.
I had tried to forget that.
Connor was watching me too closely.
He remembered.
Of course he remembered.
The realization moved through me with quiet horror.
“You chose that name,” I said to Melinda.
She shook her head slowly.
